A week have passed and of course we are texting, call each other and even writing comments in each other’s social media. FRIENDS. It’s all we are. No colors, just friends. But why am i thinking of adding colors into it? And why do i jump out whenever i saw a notification from her? Don’t! It’s what i said. I was assigned to do a project which will take place in a small province. Our company will need a help of another company to fulfill the project. This is so predictable, the other company is of course her company where she is working. She is the chief engineer in the field and I am the architect of the said project. This will be fun. I stayed in an apartment with my co-workers which is a few blocks from their company’s rented apartment as well. She asked me if we can just have our own apartment because she doesn’t want to go home after work with the faces she saw at work. I agree, because i don’t want large gatherings everyday with my co-workers as well. The project will last approximately 5-7 months. The first week was great, it’s more of decorating the apartment. We decorated the kitchen, the living room and each other’s bedroom. Yes we have different bedrooms. During weekends, i get home to spend time with my husband and kids. And everytime i go back to the apartment there’s this feeling that made me complete. The following weekend, i was not able to go home because of a typhoon. We spend the weekend together. We had dinner and wine. She asked me if we can watch a horror movie, which im not a fan of because i got scared easily and not be able to sleep alone. She just then insisted it. I screamed all night. It’s my first time to watch a horror movie. Yes, in my entire life i really didn’t watch a single horror movie. I can’t sleep alone because the image remains in my head. I asked her if we can sleep in the living room, but she offered to sleep in my bed and promised me that she will be right next to me. She is looking at me intimately, i ignored it. But she went so near and ask me if she can hold me. I nod. Her face are so near and i was looking at her lips. God damn those lips. She smile a little and told me to stop staring at her lips and she kissed me. The sweetest kiss i’ve ever tasted in my life. It’s like candy and wine that will made you ask for more. A kiss that made me feel fireworks and flowers. When i woke up, i saw her beside me. I felt for the first time that i need to be next to her, i need to share every breath with her, i need to know i can see she’s smiling looking deeply in my eyes for the rest of my life. But then my kids faces replaced her face. What am i doing? I can’t ruin my own house. A house where my children are nurtured with love. But why am i feeling an emptiness inside me if she’s gone? It felt like half of me will die. When she woke up, she gave me a kiss. Another kiss and lots of kisses. We spend the whole saturday together. A great moment. An amazing day that i have never felt before. She does complete me.
